law and order

it's been a while since i posted so here's something i wrote up long ago:

disorder prevents me from being efficient, or even competent; thwarts my social life; and keeps me miserable with a backlog of obligations.

Materiality entails being subject to entropy. Even left alone a situation "decays." Any interacting affects a situation, and if my interaction does not at least "maintain" a situation, it must hasten it towards decay.

Entropy thus exacts its due in one coin or another - either I pay in advance, like a good householder, and maintain the environment and thus benefit by harmony with it and its maintaining me (reciprocal maintenance), or I simply suffer the consequences of progressing entropy, expending extra "energy" trying to find thnigs, get things done, or just just being uncomfortable or miserable!

It seems there might be a degree of choice, whether to pay, actively, presently, upon receipt, as it were, the dues exacted by entropy. Or wait around until the dues collector, Disorder, calls to collect it in person.

I was aided by a very well-rounded book which entailed keeping a journal and exploring costs and benefits and the psychology of being a slob, and of course my journal is rife with fourth way ideas. i know that's not the whole story because my live has devolved since the point, however, for a spell my whole life got cleaned up, and it seemed that i had a glimpse of what coming under certain orders of laws entailed, and perhaps what freeing myself from unnecessary orders of laws might be. other great forces were at work in my life at the time, so i can't claim too much with regard to my own ability to deal with my disorder or even to claim to understand cause and effect, but there were certainly powerful insights in the direction of verification.